Empire State of Mind is now my official personal anthem. I have no idea what Katy Perry is talking about, I'm glad I'm not a California gurl.
My heart was aching for a change. Moving from Port Townsend, to LA, back to Port Townsend really put my life into retrospect. I've come to the realization that no place is permanent. Before making the move to LA, I thought that California was going to be my future home. My fallen hopes and expectations of the city pushed me into homesickness and I started yearning for the smell of rain and patchouli. Then after being home for a few years I realized that the people around me weren't the same anymore. People who I thought were my friends drifted away. Childhood memories were indeed merely memories. It was the perfect opportunity to embrace the monumental change I really needed in life.
New York was a faraway dream for me. I kept telling myself that I would make the move as soon as I was finished with school. I realized that if I kept telling myself, "in a few years, in a few years" then I would never bring myself to taking the big leap. All of my life I spent worrying about what my loved ones expected of me. And after cutting out all the little thorns in my life I've come to the conclusion that in order to be happy, one mustn't sacrifice happiness for those who wouldn't do the same.
Everything came into place after I was given the e-mail address of a former intern at Sretsis that my aunt had met in Bangkok. I have always been a long time admirer of the Thai clothing label and so decided to write to her. I was inspired by how very easily things fell into place for me once I motivated myself. After speaking with her, I approached the company directly and landed myself an internship at their showroom.
So I am now taking the big leap. A very inspirational person had asked me, as I was daydreaming about NYC, "Why not go now?". At the time I thought the idea was absurd. How could I uproot my life and two jobs, to move to New York City three years ahead of plan? Then my very best friend told me, "if you keep waiting until you're ready, you'll never be ready". And just hearing that makes me feel very, very ready.
Sretsis 2010/11 'Stolen Moments' Collection
No comments:
Post a Comment